Well, haven't written in a long time. Mainly because I don't know how many people actually read my blogs. Plus I have been feeling down. Alone. While most days I'm fine, lately I find myself depressed more. Alone. Summer is supposed to be time for vacations and fun. But not for me. Everyone is having fun but me. And so..it causes me to be sad. Depressed. They do their own thing but of course I am left out..forgotten. No one seems to want to hang out with me. So it makes me question..what's wrong with me? I mean for no one to want to hang out with me, there has to be something wrong, right? And don't get me wrong, I know people are busy, but would it hurt for someone to include me at least once in awhile. Some days I feel as if God has forgotten about me. Forgot to bless me. I know He hasn't, that He has a time for everything, but I just got to be patient and trust in Him. But I do have at least one friend who likes to hang out and if I drove, we probably could hang out more and we are going to hang out today :) But other than her, I have no friends. Why do I have such horrible luck with keeping friends and making good friends? Seriously what is wrong with me? Really it seems if I want more friends to hang out with, I got to really change and start partying and drinking. But that's not me..I'm not into drinking or partying. It's sad really to think that. But it's true.
OK..enough on that. Not much else is going on. Not a day goes by where I don't think of Jasper. I still miss him so much. But least I have Eli. He makes me happy and laugh. He also reminds me of Jasper in some ways. I play with Eli. I love him so much. Other than that, I read. write, work. The usual.
I started watching Law and Order:SVU. It's really good. And I love Chris Meloni. Too bad he's not on the new ones. Oh, well..old ones are good. They are new to me. Also I started to watch Under the Dome. Crazy! I could't even imagine being stuck in a town and no way out.
Well all for now. bye
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